so my friend told me....

SA: you know I learn a lot about you from your pictures than talking to you

erni_salsabila: rlly?
erni_salsabila: how?
erni_salsabila: so wht did u learn?

SA: well...i should say
SA: because not everything is true always
SA: you know
SA: like when i looked at your picture on myspace
SA: i was sure you were
SA: trying to get the angle of the camera right

erni_salsabila: uhuh..and then?

SA: that made me understand

erni_salsabila: that?

SA: at that time you were a Girl dreaming about someone to be with
SA: but its natural
SA: we all have wishes

erni_salsabila: that time?

SA: well...

erni_salsabila: i was trying to get it at right angle

SA: you were more hapy with your friends

erni_salsabila: yes but skool n college frens
erni_salsabila: not university friends

SA: yes

erni_salsabila: i dont think i've been happy here

SA: i know Erni....

erni_salsabila: never
erni_salsabila: its d worse

SA: in univ. mostly your pics are simple
SA: and you are alone in them

So i just realised...never knew it was obvious to some that i'm lonely...T_T

mimpi

Kawan...tahu tak aku mimpikan siapa?
KITA
Yup, aku mimpikan kita....hehe

Best sangat...kita sama-sama lari nak kejar waktu tengok wayang...hehe
Best sangat kita gelak sama-sama...hee....sangat bahagia

Tapi, kenapa dalam mimpi je...hmm
Kenapa sekarang kita tak boleh jadi macam dulu?

Dulu kita sama-sama mengadu nasib, kenapa sekarang dah tak?

Mungkin sebab kau dah lebih kenal aku dan tahu kekurangan aku?
Tapi kawanku, kau pon ada kekurangan...dan of course aku pon not perfect....

Sorry kalau aku bukan kawan yang kau cari selama ni..

Tak sangka, kita lebih elok berjauhan...this fact hurts...I MISS "US"

I'm trying

I can't stand it actually...do i not exist? am i a sound machine that's supposed to hear your every slamming? And am i just a non-living that deserves none of ur attention?

to Yatimah, other mrsmbpj frens and KMJ frens

It's really tough for me to undergo the transition from semi-city life to an urban life. Culture shock? Sure. Nothing's the same anymore after migrating to Malaysia, though I'm not much of a city prat. haha

It's great having friends at mrsm bpj. Everyone so close to each other (though among those of same age only) and so understanding. Yet, they still have the space to despise me. Hmm...maybe I exaggerated the "skema" disease? Well, that's just first impression though. You never knew me well, except for some. Less than some is more accurate I think. Hated, isolated, despised, insulted, all in a go, isn't that harsh? And on what stand do you have to be against me? Opps, this kinda power-hungry trash that caused all of this.

Just be yourself. Hmm......it's like silly when i think about it.....being me makes me so repulsive. You hated me anyway.

Somehow there are those who stood by me. Still seeing me through all these rubbish, though from afar. Up till now, I'm facing transitions continuously.

Do you think changing stream is easy? Sure I can take the challenge to catch up with you guys in studies. But I can't fit in your group. Duh!!! A group???!! I thought we are facing this together? What makes you avoid my presence? Like I'm something disgusting or embarrassing? Ahh...I know...I'm an embarrassment to you...(^_^)

It's funny how you're curious about me being alone...hehe....do you know I'm forced to be likewise? I want company too. Didn't I give my best to befriend you? What exactly is the problem? Like, why am I not in the list to be involved with you people? Do you expect me to poke my nose ALL the time? T_T

It's weird how great distance brings people together...being near just nurture the hatred. Why? Why didn't you rely on me like before? And why can't I do so too? Why is it you are so rebellious?

In the end, only school and college friends can bring back my smile...T_T

get lost

Don't ask
You are simply unforgivable
For what you did
Returning my love and ending it with sudden hatred
Ending without reason
Ha! Coward....

Cruel-the kindest word for you
Leaving me in an ocean of love
No way that's forgivable

Up till now, your leaving only leave damages
Damages so deep, only tears show them
Tears that still flows till now
That's where you are cruel

Go away, get lost even if I am calling you
Don't feel sorry for me
I love you

kini masih pahit

Tak mungkin perkenalan kita hanya jenaka
Tapi itulah anggapanmu

Mudahnya kau buka laluan cinta
Dan sewenangnya berhenti di curaman
Mudahnya kau hiasi jalan itu dengan hadiah dan kasih sayang
Dan rampasnya semula

Tahu tak betapa aku menangis
Yakin cintamu pasti kunjung tiba
Kenapa aku yakin? Lu pikirlah sendiri

Sedih bila kau berlalu gitu sahaja
Airmataku seluas lautan rupanya
Kerana pemergian kau terlampau melampau

Dah bersemester menjadi kenangan
Kini ada pengganti
Tapi mana mungkin melupakan kau
Kau yang membalas cinta aku
Kau yang melukakan hatiku berdarah

Bila suasana suram
Masih ingin menangis
Sesal dengan pendirianmu
Hingga kini masih pahit.....

hai la hai la hai la

Kepelikan menyelubungi erni tika ini...T_T

Uhuk2!!!!(dgn sangat kuat)
sorry roomm8 ea, bising ckitla mlm nih...huhuhu

Penin penin!!!rse sedih, mmbazir masa, tergaamam...uwaaaaaa!!!knpala minx tulun aku kalo ada org len blh tulun ko!!!uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

Dala aku xdpt daftar bnyk kursus...nk amek ape lg ntah!!!

Best fren ku di atas laut(oversea) so time2 gini, sapela yg nk jd kawan ngis aku...uhhhh

Dala ptptn da potong duit aku!!!ptotnye gtawla dulu nk potong!!!dah tu, time2 raya gak dy nk potong...wuwuwuwuwu