It's really tough for me to undergo the transition from semi-city life to an urban life. Culture shock? Sure. Nothing's the same anymore after migrating to Malaysia, though I'm not much of a city prat. haha
It's great having friends at mrsm bpj. Everyone so close to each other (though among those of same age only) and so understanding. Yet, they still have the space to despise me. Hmm...maybe I exaggerated the "skema" disease? Well, that's just first impression though. You never knew me well, except for some. Less than some is more accurate I think. Hated, isolated, despised, insulted, all in a go, isn't that harsh? And on what stand do you have to be against me? Opps, this kinda power-hungry trash that caused all of this.
Just be yourself. Hmm......it's like silly when i think about it.....being me makes me so repulsive. You hated me anyway.
Somehow there are those who stood by me. Still seeing me through all these rubbish, though from afar. Up till now, I'm facing transitions continuously.
Do you think changing stream is easy? Sure I can take the challenge to catch up with you guys in studies. But I can't fit in your group. Duh!!! A group???!! I thought we are facing this together? What makes you avoid my presence? Like I'm something disgusting or embarrassing? Ahh...I know...I'm an embarrassment to you...(^_^)
It's funny how you're curious about me being alone...hehe....do you know I'm forced to be likewise? I want company too. Didn't I give my best to befriend you? What exactly is the problem? Like, why am I not in the list to be involved with you people? Do you expect me to poke my nose ALL the time? T_T
It's weird how great distance brings people together...being near just nurture the hatred. Why? Why didn't you rely on me like before? And why can't I do so too? Why is it you are so rebellious?
In the end, only school and college friends can bring back my smile...T_T
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