the day our smiles sit side-by-side

though i never say "i love u"
though i never kiss you
though i hangout with my friends more
though i never sing you a song
though i never call you
though i never text you
though i never look you in the eyes properly
though i dislike some of your ways
though i never reply your love signs

i want you to know that there's no other than YOU

and if......

i am not there for you
i am not as perfect as you wanted
i am not like what you wish for
i am no longer beautiful in your eyes
i am just a nuisance to you

it is not ok but if it's for the best, i'll let you go.......

but i will forever love you....

Boys never get it....[sigh]

assalamualaikum......!

It's been a long time since I updated you, my blog. VERY long time.

Yesterday I was told how "wide" I am compared to my [thin] friend....no problem, except, it was a HE who told me that. Yes ladies & gentlemen, a HE.

Though he denied being serious, that he was only saying & joking, I really err, felt [terasa] huuhuu...

Don't boys have any idea how traumatic it is for an M girl turning into L in a short period of time? Okay, fine, size doesn't matter to you guys [yeah right] but do you know how it feels like to:

• Get into your favourite clothes halfway because it was stuck at the widening shoulders?
• Wear your routine jeans up to the knees only because something did get fatter there?
• Look in the mirror & noticed that the mirror is smaller than your body?
• Starve yourself or refrain from eating McDonald's just because you're on a [lifetime] diet?
• Being asked by your neighbours, your tuition student's mother, your aunt, your siblings, your cousins & you own mom etc, "How come you're getting fat, when you're supposed to get thinner coz of study?"
• Flip through magazines and saw a nice dress but being turned down because you feel it won't ft you?
• Watch music videos of K-pop girl groups and watch droolingly their long slender legs and SLIM bodies?
• et cetera

It's sensitive to us girls just like how sensitive you are about your fave FC =P